2/7/10 01:31 am - We had a dream.
Have to stop getting too close.
It always leaves me feeling empty, almost hollow, when it all ends.
But i always return to the same Place.
You hit me hard today (by accident).
You apologised non-stop and for a moment we were like before.
Sure, we were laughing and i was secretly indulging in the moment we were physically (and hopefully mentally) close again.
But you never did realise how much harder you hit me in the heart when you turned your back on me and became a stranger i never knew.
That was the worst days of my life.
You should stop being so comfortably close with me.
It's not good for you or me or us.
This is harder than i thought.
I need someone.
Funny thing is, i always get someone.
But it always turns out to be the wrong one.
And i can't push them away because i need the comfort.
I'm a selfish bitch.
Really am.
I hate myself.
Why is it so fucking hard to be self-sufficient.
It always leaves me feeling empty, almost hollow, when it all ends.
But i always return to the same Place.
You hit me hard today (by accident).
You apologised non-stop and for a moment we were like before.
Sure, we were laughing and i was secretly indulging in the moment we were physically (and hopefully mentally) close again.
But you never did realise how much harder you hit me in the heart when you turned your back on me and became a stranger i never knew.
That was the worst days of my life.
You should stop being so comfortably close with me.
It's not good for you or me or us.
This is harder than i thought.
I need someone.
Funny thing is, i always get someone.
But it always turns out to be the wrong one.
And i can't push them away because i need the comfort.
I'm a selfish bitch.
Really am.
I hate myself.
Why is it so fucking hard to be self-sufficient.
